Jennifer's Million Pound Matchup!

I never considered myself to have high will power or great dedication to anything. This is the one thing I wanted to do perfectly. Of course that didnt happen. Today is 13 days into my diet and exercise program. I am down to 284 from 300 with my official weigh in date on Wed. Last night however was really rough and horrible and i fell from grace and went head on into a brick wall. I did great at work, burned 313 calories in the morning while walking uphill and even jogging for a few minutes. After work I went back to the gym for another 30 minutes of cardio with the eliptical, burning off an amazing 373 calories. So when I got done it was 5 and i was STARVING. My friend and I stopped at subway and we got 2 foot-longs with lite mayo pepperjack cheese , turkey, and loaded with all the veggies. My intention was to save half for lunch today. That didnt happen. I got home and my boyfriend and i ate, its now about 545 and we usually eat dinner around 8 ( we work late during the week ). I put half away in the fridge however about 90 minutes later i was hungry again. REALLY hungry. So i had the other half and a 100 calorie pack. That should have been fine but it wasnt. another hour goes by and I am hungry again. So i grab 2 string cheeses. My boyfriend asked me to get him a peice of cheese cake I made for him the other day. ( this was before he decided to really join me starting today) I did of course and of course i took a few bites, ( 3 to be exact) . So we sit down its about midnight and we turned on a movie
( we are late birds) he made himself some popcorn and i went ahead and grabbed another 100 calorie pack.

I am ashamed to admit that i was out of control. I think I know what my trigger was though. I ate the sandwich which is loaded with carbs and perhaps that triggered something in me to think i was hungry all the time. I am not sure how it all works but  havent been that out of control in almost 2 weeks and I was proud of myself.

I need to do some more research but i think that certain foods may trigger people to eat more and more often. Bread seems to really be my evil villian and savior. I love all types, and i know that it will be my biggest hurdle. I did find some Sarah lee bread that contains 45 calories per slice.

Also I am battling something in my right lower sinus cavity. Its a mass of some sort that is pushing on my teeth and making it painful to talk, chew, even smile. I couldnt get into the doctor until Friday so I am going than with a specialist appointment on Tuesday the following week.

Well everyone have a good week and try to stay focused and positive, we can do it!

I find myself recognizing my own weaknesses when it comes to food. Right now is a great example. I am not hungry , I am bored. I know I am bored as I am off work today, I work weekends instead so I take two days off during the week. So being bored I want to nibble and munch , and yes i have healthy food in my house I just cant wrap my brain around my eating habits. I can go some days with no problem and other days I want to nibble until my heart is content. I have a great TV show on right now, my house is clean and my dog is driving me to drink, but i really dont have anything to do so i get bored. Also feeling better is great I am finally over the food poisoning and you can bet we wont be having dinner at our friends house again.

The great news for today is that I think my boyfriend is ready for his own lifestyle changes. I didnt want to push him to lose weight even though he is 450+ but I worry about his health. He is very tall 6'2 or 6'3 and an ex football player. I just want him healthy and happy. His BP isnt elevated yet and i want him to get active with me. he told me today that he wants to lose weight and go one a diet now. I think my success so far has showed him that it can be done.

My boyfriend and I decided it was food poising that put us under the weather. However what I dont understand is that even though I am feeling better and had real food yesterday, i even cheated a touch at the end of the day just to get in some extra calories with a 1 cup ice cream. I figured I would have put back on all the fluid weight I loss. yesterday alone i went through 3 litters of water, 2 bottles of gatoraide and a can of diet dr pepper. Yet my scale showed me weighing less than yesterday. I don't mind the additional weight loss however I doubt its the right kind of weight that I want/need to lose. Perhaps I will wait another day or two to see if my numbers go back up. Its not like I am complaining about a 16 pound weight loss in one week, however i know 9-10 of it was from being sick.

Side note. Ive seen alot of brave women taking real pictures of themselves and I think its time I did as well. So look for a slide show thingy ( if i can figure it out) later today of the real 100% me. And if I can figure out how to do a video diary I would like to start that. Any sistas out there with techno advice feel free to share.

XOXOXO For now

jen